The other day my son said to me, “But Mommy, aren’t you an artist? Why can’t you do music for your job?” I thought to myself, oh man…if only it was that easy. I know kids don’t really understand how the grown up world works, but he’s right in a way (and lets face it, most adults don’t get how the grown up world works either). But, Why can’t I write music for my job?
Well, if I was to be completely fair to myself, I guess I could say that I never really gave it a try. I mean, I’ve always written piano songs since I was a kid, but never really let anyone even hear my songs until a few years ago (when I was…um…29). Until then, I was extremely shy about the whole thing. I didn’t even know how to record my songs yet. So, when I was younger and in college, when I technically could have done something more with my music, I just didn’t. I ended up going to school to be a teacher because it was just safer and traditional. To me there was really no risk because anyone could get a teaching job right? I ended up really loving teaching, but in the end, I decided against all that also, and never really even used my teaching degree. I don’t even know why I’m saying all this, except to show that life never seems to turn out how you think it would, at least career-wise. Looking back, I should of at least attempted to do something with my music.
Now, I’m a medical coder, and I truly enjoy it. If you’re a person who doesn’t mind working in an office, it’s a great job. You have to take courses to learn how to code, but it’s something that you can learn to do if you’re dedicated and just put the time in. I love my coworkers, but part of why I like coding so much is because I don’t really have to deal with people. I have a few great, close friends in real life who I love. But other than them, I can honestly say that I don’t like meeting or dealing with new people that much. So coding is the perfect job for me. But, I have to admit, that sometimes while I’m at my desk, I think about playing the piano, or I think about the new song that I’m working on, and wish I was doing that instead. Because when push comes to shove, any employer can replace any employee or outsource their job to a foreign country in a second if they felt like it. But with music, it’s not like that. Yes, there’s thousands and thousands of musicians, but we’re all different and unique. You can’t outsource creativity, and that’s the beauty of being an artist. No one can truly replace something that you are writing.
Anyway, I’m like brain dead today, and I kind of forgot the whole point of this post. I think I was trying to say that while I’m glad I’m a medical coder, and do like my career, music will always be in my mind as a possibility, but really more of a dream. I don’t mean like I want to be a famous performer rock star or someone like that, but it would be cool if my song were just out there more. I did write some songs for independent films, that supposedly are using my songs, but as I type this, those films have not gone into production yet. And really when you think about it, who knows if they ever will. Those are someone else’s dreams…so who knows if that will ever even happen.
I did start recording my new song two nights ago, but then my computer crashed and I lost the whole friggin thing. Usually if there’s a computer problem while I’m recording, my program will automatically save whatever I recorded, but for some reason, it didn’t save this time. It’s not the end of the world–it wasn’t ready yet, but still. That is just very frustrating.
Good luck to all of you musicians or medical coders or anyone else who reads this blog somewhere 🙂 It really means a lot to me that you like and listen to my songs. All of my songs are in the music player to the right on the screen if you want to listen to them again.
Thanks for reading-
Lindsay Della Vella