All of us are so different in so many ways. We all have different dreams, goals, careers and responsibilities that sets us apart from each other. We go about our day, not really giving much thought to anything but the immediate future. But the sad truth is that nothing that’s going on in your life will last forever. If you’re in a good place right now, that won’t always last. If you’re going through a tough time, that won’t always last either. Nothing is permanent because life itself isn’t permanent. I’m not sure why I’m even thinking about these kinds of things lately, but I am. It could be because this year I’m planning on going back into the workforce after staying home for many years with my young children. Or it could be just because I feel as though I’m getting a little older (my 20 year high school reunion will be in 2015, you can do the math to figure out my real age, but if you ask me, I’ll say I’m 29). Either way, I’ve just been thinking about how bittersweet life really is. It’s wonderful to be alive and to enjoy life, but none of us, no matter how young we think we are, will be here forever.
Picture yourself as an “old person” for a minute, say about the age of 80. What do you see? How do you envision yourself? For me, for some reason, I always kind of see myself sitting outside on porch swing, of an old house, overlooking lots of land. Almost like a prairie. I have no idea where this idea came from. I’ve never been to a place like that. But, as I’m sitting there, I’m also kind of just looking back at my life. Would I be happy with all the choices I made, that at the time seemed so important? Would my life be full of regrets, and what-if’s, and lost dreams? And then there’s the people who are in my life. How many friends did I lose touch with that I miss? How many family members did I get into arguments with over the years…did I forgive them? Did they forgive me?
“I’D RATHER REGRET THE THINGS I’VE DONE, THAN THE THINGS I HAVEN’T DONE.” -LUCILLE BALL
All of this has a role in to why I’m finally sharing my music now, even though I feel like I missed the boat a little. Because when I’m 80 years old, I want to look back on my life and feel like I at least attempted to share my music. Music is about sharing, and so is life. If no one except a handful of people ever heard my songs, how sad would that be. I’m not saying I’m the best musician ever, because I know I’m not. But we all have God-given gifts, and that one just happens to be mine. It feels almost wrong, to not even make an attempt to let people hear my songs at all.
So what about you? If you wake up one day, and are 80 years old, would you be happy how your life turned out? I know no ones life is perfect, but is there something you always wanted to do, or a place you always wanted to go? Now is the time to do those things. All of our time here is limited. There will come a day when I physically won’t even be able to play the piano. Like most people when they get old, I’ll probably get arthritis and not be able to play. Or maybe I won’t even want to play anymore, but I kind of doubt that. Music is in my blood.
“TO BE ABLE TO LOOK BACK UPON ONES LIFE IN SATISFACTION, IS TO LIVE TWICE.” -KAHLIL GIBRAN
So, do what makes you happy. When you get old, you’re not going to remember the problems that seem so big now. But you may remember some things and be full of regret. It took me my whole life to get the courage to share my songs, and I’m still very shy about it. But eventually my whole point of view started to change. All I know is, I don’t want to look back on my life, and realize that I decided not to share the only real gift that I could give to people. My music.
Many people have told me that my music sounds very reflective to them, and makes them think of their own path in life. One song in particular stands out, called “Journey,” hence the name. I did not come up with the name of the song, but others told me that was their interpretation of it. It is in the music player up above to the right, or you can just click play below, to hear it.
“Journey” by Lindsay Della Vella 2014
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-Lindsay Della Vella